Bye bye 2015!

Sit down to write a few lines on the highlights of the year… and discover my mind is blank. Open my calendar and start to scroll, month by month, and wow. What a year. Again, Because aren’t they all like that really – amazing, jam-packed with experience and memorable?2015en

2015 has a lot to offer. Considering how much I travelled in 2014 I never thought 2015 would be yet another year filled with travels. All in all I actually think I travelled even more times than 2014, even though the duration was mostly shorter.

Creating the impossible
I started off the year with 90 days online-course with and by Michael Neill. Creating the impossible really made an impression on me, and the project I chose really gave me a lot of room for expansion.

#cleanse4expansion
This was my project for Creating the impossible. 90 + 90 days of daily cleanse, aiming to go through both my physical and digital home. Each thing in its place, and a place for each thing. You would not believe the amount of cleansing I did. I managed to work through almost every little bit of my house, I donated a lot of stuff, and it feels so good. It’s as nice to have done a significant inroads on my digital vistas, most notably my Evernote-account and my Dropbox.

#afkUmeå, Sweden
What would a year be without an #afkSkolvåren (i.e. School-spring)? Luckily, I didn’t have to discover this in 2015 either, and for that I am very happy. Do you know what it feels like to be a part of such an incredible movement that #skolvåren is?

Innate Health conference, England
What an experience. The realization that I won’t be attending more conferences like this, where the main part (or all?) is about intake, and very little is about taking active part and cocreating, was a large one. And yet. Listening to Dicken Bettinger, made the entire journey worth it. I was deeply touched, and reinforced in my hope for the future at that.

Mainland support Almedalen
After three years at Almedalen I chose to stay at home to be the mainland support for the #skolvåren gang on site. This was both very rewarding and tough. Not to be right smack in the middle of it all, very curious as to what’s happening, whom are they meeting, what possible connections and future collaborations are being born and so on. A lot of thought, and without a doubt it’s very less taxing for body and psyche to act as mainland support rather than being there on site. But the number of tweets certainly dwindled!

Center for Sustainable Change
Board member and chair of the Programming Committee is also something new for 2015. The Center for Sustainable Change, with strong roots in the US, is an organization in the midst of a transformation, and I’ve been given an opportunity to contribute with my thoughts, energy and wisdom. Let me tell you, there is a lot of learning opportunities here for me!

Human Potential Realization summit, The Netherlands
As a total opposite to the Innate Health conference, this was a fully co-creative experience. 2,5 days of intense energy and connection, connective harmonies and exploration. What a magnificent experience, and there is more to come!

Choir tour with a royal twist, England
The day after coming home forn the Human Potential Realization summit it was takeoff time to head off to England with the rest of my choir and our smashing choir master Jens. 4 days of fun and singing in an England on it’s best behavior (weather wise!). What a treat!

#theconf
A little over a year ago I bought two get-two-pay-for-one-tickets to #theconf, an odd sort of conference organized by Media Evolution i Malmö since quite a few years back. I gave away my extra ticket to Michael Sillion, who did a great job at summarizing Derek Sivers small gigs. DThese short snippets of mindbendingly well spoken thoughts were really great, and along with Suleiman Bakhit they were my main take-aways from #theconf, which is a conference I strongly recommend you attend.

#SethinLondon, England
This was high-impact. Talk about being wowed! A 5 hour Q&A-session with Seth Godin, in front of an audience of 400 people, including me and (yet again!) Michael Sillion. He was the best travel companion I could have to ensure that this very powerful experience won’t stay an experience as such, but will actually grow into something more permanent. The experience in itself was the inspiration for my advent calendar here on the blog this year.

#ULab
Sara Modig asked a handful of people if we wanted to join her for #ULab, a MOOC with and of Otto Scharmer, the father of Theory U. JI was all game, along with five others, and we set up our own coaching circle. Now what an experience that turned out to be. And such an amazing set up of people to experience this with. And it won’t end either, my coaching circle will run through the entire #ULab course once more, in slightly slower tempo, starting January. Read the summary in Huffington Post, written by Otto Scharmer, and definitely keep an eye out for future MOOCs!

KASAM – a feeling of connection
Thanks. My deepest thanks to you all, who surround me. Connections that Näve contributed to, a co-creation that enrich my life. For real. It’s not just something I state here, because it sounds a bit fancy. I truly mean it. These past few years have meant that I now am surrounded by a supporting circle of friends and family who play a large part in my personal development. No matter the life-force of a seed, if the soil isn’t just right for it, nothing good will come out of it anyway. And the soil I thread in is extremely life-affirming, let me tell you! It consists, amongst other things, of my MasterMind-gang, my life line, and the #skolvåren mobile office. Ledarlyftet, everyone at Being at full potential and many others. Newfound friends, such as Tess. Relationships that have grown deeper, such as with Dominic. And not to forget, Carla, my coach, mirroring me, and giving me wisdom and loving nudges along the way. My deepest heartfelt tanks to you all, both those specifically singled out here, and everyone else!

My family
In think and thin, in rain as well as sunshine, in the ordinaryness of life as well as on vacation and on travels – this year to LondonFranska Rivieran and Madrid, to name three. Love and care, irritation and quarrels. We encompass it all, together, and I love you! Add to that the joy of having gotten another two bonus-grandchildren during 2015, and you can understand what a rewarding life it’s been on a strictly private level as well.

HEROs very own day
Mmm. That’s what the calendar says, weekly, a full day, and have done, since the end of August. It doesn’t always turn into a full day. And I move it around when needs be. But it’s a significant change. I have started to put Myself as my top priority, and truly stand for it. To say No is an art Iäve been practicing a lot since I posted HEROs very own day as a regular activity in my calendar, and it’s been very instructive and worthwhile. I don’t know exactly what 2016 will bring for me, but HEROs very own day will most definitely be a piece of the puzzle that I will bring with me in to the upcoming year!

And what a year. Again. Because aren’t they all like that really – amazing, jam-packed with experience and totally memorable – all the years that pass?

Hej då 2015!

Sätter mig för att skriva några rader om årets höjdpunkter…. när hjärnan känns helt blank. Öppnar kalendern och börjar bläddra, månad för månad, och oj. Vilket år. Igen. För är de inte alla sådana egentligen – fantastiska, händelserika och minnesvärda – åren som går?2015sv2015 bjöd på mycket. Med tanke på hur mycket jag reste 2014 trodde jag aldrig att 2015 skulle bli ett år fyllt av resor. Det blev nog tom ännu fler resor än 2014, om än inte fullt så långa.

Creating the impossible
Året inleddes med 90 dagar online-kurs av och med Michael Neill. Creating the impossible gjorde verkligen ett avtryck på mig, och projektet jag valde gav utrymme för oerhört mycket expansion.

#cleanse4expansion
Detta var mitt creating the impossible-projekt. 90 + 90 dagar av dagligt röjande, i syfte att gå igenom både mitt fysiska såväl som mitt digitala hem. Var sak på sin plats och en plats för varje sak. Oj vad jag röjde. Nästan varenda liten bit av huset blev genomgången, mycket prylar bortskänkta och det känns oerhört skönt. Lika skönt att ha gjort stora insatser i mina digitala visten, mest anmärkningsvärt Evernote och Dropbox.

#afkUmeå, Sverige
Vad vore ett år utan en #afkSkolvåren? Som tur är behövde jag inte uppleva det under 2015 och det är jag glad för. Vet du hur det känns att vara en del av en så fantastisk företeelse som ansvarsrörelsen #skolvåren är?

Innate Health conference, England
Omtumlande upplevelse. Insikten att jag inte ska åka på fler konferenser av detta slag, där huvuddelen (eller allt) består av intryck, och väldigt lite delaktighet och samskapande, var väldigt stor. Men ändå, att få lyssna till Dicken Bettinger, det var värt allt. Blev så oerhört berörd, och stärkt i mitt hopp om framtiden.

Fastlandssupport Almedalen
Efter tre år i Almedalen valde jag att stanna hemma och agera fastlandssupport till #skolvåren:s gäng istället. Något som var både oerhört givande och väldigt tufft. Att inte befinna sig mitt i smeten, nyfiket undrande hur det går, vad händer, vem träffar dem, vilka kontakter och blivande samarbeten föds osv osv osv. Många tankar blev det och onekligen tär det mindre på kropp och psyke att vara fastlandssupport kontra att befinna sig på plats. Men väsentligt mycket färre tweets blir det dessutom.

Center for Sustainable Change
Styrelsemedlem och ordförande i Programming Committee har jag också blivit under 2015. En organisation med rötter i USA som är mitt uppe i en transformation, där jag har fått chansen att bidra med mina tankar, min energi och min visdom. Snacka om lärorikt!

Human Potential Realization summit, Nederländerna
Som en total motsats till Innate Health conference, så var detta en fullkomligt samskapad upplevelse. 2,5 dagar av intensiv energy och samhörighet, sammanflätade harmonier och utforskande. Vilken fantastisk upplevelse, och det kommer mera!

Körturné med kunglig glans, England
Dagen efter hemkomst från Human Potential Realization summit var det avfärd till England tillsammans med resten av min kör och vår underbare körledare Jens. 4 dagar av hygge och sång i ett ljuvligt höstvarmt England. Vilken ynnest!

#theconf
För ett drygt år sedan köpte jag gå-två-betala-för-en-biljett till #theconf, en annorlunda konferens anordnad av Media Evolution i Malmö sedan ett antal år tillbaka. Gav bort min extrabiljett till Michael Sillion, som summerat Derek Sivers små uppträden. Dessa korta tankespjärn var enormt berikande, och tillsammans med Suleiman Bakhit var de min största behållning från #theconf, som jag definitivt rekommenderar att du går på.

#SethinLondon, England
Detta var high-impact. Snacka om wowad! En 5 timmars Q&A-session med Seth Godin, för en publik om 400 personer, inklusive mig och (även här!) Michael Sillion. Bästa ressällskapet för att säkra att denna oerhört starka upplevelse inte heller stannar vid en upplevelse, utan faktiskt blir något som gör bestående intryck. Upplevelsen i sig inspirerade mig till årets julkalender.

#ULab
Sara Modig kastade ut en fråga till en handfull människor om vi ville haka på henne på #ULab, en MOOC med och av Otto Scharmer, fadern till Theory U. Jag hakade på, tillsammans med totalt sex andra, och vi utgör en egen liten coaching-cirkel. Vilken upplevelse. Och vilket fantastiskt gäng att uppleva detta tillsammans med. Och inte tar det slut här heller, vår coachingcirkel ska gå igenom hela #ULab-kursen tillsammans en gång till, i lite långsammare tempo, med start i januari. Läs summeringen i Huffington Post, skriven av Otto Scharmer, och håll definitivt koll på kommande MOOC:ar!

KASAM
Tack. Mitt djupaste tack till er alla, som finns i min omgivning. Sammanhang jag bidragit till att skapa, ett samskapande som berikar mitt liv. På riktigt. Inte bara något jag säger, för att det låter tjusigt. Jag menar det verkligen. De senaste åren har medfört att jag nu har en stödjande omgivning som är en stor del i min egen utveckling. Ett frö kan vara nog så livskraftigt, om jordmånen är undermålig blir det inget bra av det ändå, och min jordmån är helt fantastiskt livgivande ska du veta! Jordmånen består bland annat av MasterMind-gänget, min livlina, och #skolvårens mobile office. Ledarlyftet, Being at full potential-gänget och många fler. Nyvunna vänner, som Tess. Fördjupade relationer, som Dominic. Och inte minst Carla, min coach, som speglar mig, och ger mig vishet och kärleksfull pepp och puff på vägen. Ett hjärtinnerligt tack till er alla, nämnda som onämnda!

Min familj
I ur och skur, i vardag såväl som på semester och under resor – i år bland annat London, Franska Rivieran och Madrid. Kärlek och omsorg, irritation och bråk. Allt omfamnar vi, tillsammans, och jag älskar er! Lägg till det ynnesten att ha berikats med ytterligare två bonus-barnbarn under året, så förstår ni vilket underbart år det varit på det privata planet.

HEROs very own day
Mmm. Så står det i kalendern, varje vecka, en hel dag, och har så gjort sedan slutet av augusti. Det blir inte alltid en full dag. Och dagen kan flyttas vid behov. Men det är en signifikant förändring. Jag har börjat prioritera Mig, och verkligen stå för det. Att säga Nej är en konst jag har fått chans att öva tack vare HEROs very own day, och det har varit oerhört lärorikt. Vet inte exakt vad 2016 kommer att medföra, men detta är en av sakerna jag definitivt ska ta med mig in i det kommande året!

Som sagt. Vilket år. Igen. För är de inte alla sådana egentligen – fantastiska, händelserika och minnesvärda – alla dessa år som går?

From the deepest despair to the highest hope

Yesterday at the Innate Health conference a man by the name of Dicken Bettinger spoke. And how he spoke. Dicken shared a few stories, one of which related to a troubled teen, and that’s the one that got to me, real hard. A few minutes in on his sharing my eyes started to tear up and by the end I was sobbing, uncontrollably.  

From a place of opposing feelings; from the deepest despair, that we, ordinary people, can innocently be so cruel to each other, to the highest hope, that if you are listened to, by someone who has an understanding of the way the world actually works (inside out), your life can change in an instant.

Does that sound too easy? As if I look at turning from despair to hope with just a thought as something too lightheartedly?

I ensure you I don’t. But I think you just like I, have experienced at least once in your life, a change of heart, where you go from one state of mind to another, in the blink of an eye, in the time it takes to think one thought.

There’s a quote from Sydney Banks that describes this perfectly:

Everybody, everybody, is only one thought away from whatever you’re looking for, if you can find that one thought. And that one thought — do you know what it is? It’s a state of thoughtlessness, thoughtlessness from the little personal mind. This is why people meditate. The second your mind quietens down, what you call divine mind, spiritual mind, spiritual intelligence, spiritual knowledge, true knowledge — all the same thing in different names — comes into being. And you get what you call an insight, that is a sight from within, deep past your personal mind, and all of a sudden, your world changes. 

That’s where my hope lies. In the fact that a change of heart, a shifting of the way I see and experience the world, can happen in a heartbeat, born by the wisdom contained within one thought. That’s hopeful. And I rejoice at the fact that even though I realized the other day that I will not be coming to this type of conferences again (for now at least), I was there yesterday for an experience that shook me to the core. In the very best of ways, mind you, because I only stayed in despair for a short time. The hopefulness of it all takes over in me, and from there, beautiful things can happen. Because I know that anything is possible. That’s the message for me, after these three days at the Innate Health conference: look to and come from love and understanding. Then anything is possible. Anything. Even the seemingly impossible. Such as turning from a world of despair into a world of hope, all of a sudden. Hopeful isn’t it?

Not my format!

I am attending the Innate Health conference in the northern outskirts of London at the moment and today is the last day out of three in total. And I had a realization yesterday right before the conference ended, having noticed something in myself both day one and day two: The standard conference format just doesn’t do it for me anymore. Sitting down from morning til late afternoon, just doing intake – listening to this interesting person, these riveting talks, this panel…. with short breaks and lunch, it’s too much for me. My head get’s filled up already by lunchtime. SImply because it’s all too good! And I’m to stingy to leave – I mean, I’ve paid my ticket, I want to get the most out of it…. That last part is of course something I could learn to drop, but still. I wrote in my note book yesterday that I should avoid conferences and go to retreats instead. 

Doodling during the conference – with the occasional message to myself.

I’ve never been on a retreat as such, but there are several that I’ve considered going to. In beautiful surroundings, with a few intake sessions/day, and plenty of space inbetween those sessions, to make sure there’s time to listen to what happens within during the retreat. It’s in the space between where the magic happens, rather than during a seminar, or a plenary panel, or a full day conference. 

My old self had no such issue with full day conferences. Possibly because I didn’t know that something else existed, or perhaps rather because I wasn’t aware of the magic of the space inbetween. I have learnt to reflect, to sit with myself and whatever wants to show up, these past few years, and these last days have given me the realization that I’ve changed. 

I like that. I love it actually. I love noticing the progression within myself, how what I do/feel/think today differs from yesterday, the year before or decades ago. It’s absolutely amazing, and I am so grateful for noticing it. It points to the limitless possibilities of life, of living on this earth, on having this human experience. As I write this I sit here with a silly grin on my face, feeling extremely happy. 

So. I’ve progressed. Full-day traditional conferences no longer do the trick for me, I have different preferences. Now I just need to remember this, the next time an opportunity pops up. And a few already have popped up I just realized. Hm. Time to act according to my understanding, and drop the ”Well just this one time”-attitude that is so easy to fall into when changes are to be made. What’s your best trick for following your wisdom rather than your old habits, in a situation like this?

Light travelling – undervalued!

I flew to London this morning, to attend the 3P conference on Innate HealthI will be away for four nights, and I must say I am very pleased with the size of my luggage. Travelling light is really undervalued, I must say. I have yet, even though I get better at better at light travelling, to come home without something that could have stayed at home because it simply didn’t get used during the trip. Maybe this trip will be a first for that? There’s one thing I forgot though, my travel adaptor stayed at home. Luckily my Airbnb-host had one I could borrow. I immediately put travel adaptor in the template packing list I just created in Trello the other day. 

I did a post in Swedish with a few of the things I’ve started to pay more attention to before/during/after travels, but I am sure there are tips and tricks I’ve yet to learn, so please share yours, if you have any?