Not my format!

I am attending the Innate Health conference in the northern outskirts of London at the moment and today is the last day out of three in total. And I had a realization yesterday right before the conference ended, having noticed something in myself both day one and day two: The standard conference format just doesn’t do it for me anymore. Sitting down from morning til late afternoon, just doing intake – listening to this interesting person, these riveting talks, this panel…. with short breaks and lunch, it’s too much for me. My head get’s filled up already by lunchtime. SImply because it’s all too good! And I’m to stingy to leave – I mean, I’ve paid my ticket, I want to get the most out of it…. That last part is of course something I could learn to drop, but still. I wrote in my note book yesterday that I should avoid conferences and go to retreats instead. 

Doodling during the conference – with the occasional message to myself.

I’ve never been on a retreat as such, but there are several that I’ve considered going to. In beautiful surroundings, with a few intake sessions/day, and plenty of space inbetween those sessions, to make sure there’s time to listen to what happens within during the retreat. It’s in the space between where the magic happens, rather than during a seminar, or a plenary panel, or a full day conference. 

My old self had no such issue with full day conferences. Possibly because I didn’t know that something else existed, or perhaps rather because I wasn’t aware of the magic of the space inbetween. I have learnt to reflect, to sit with myself and whatever wants to show up, these past few years, and these last days have given me the realization that I’ve changed. 

I like that. I love it actually. I love noticing the progression within myself, how what I do/feel/think today differs from yesterday, the year before or decades ago. It’s absolutely amazing, and I am so grateful for noticing it. It points to the limitless possibilities of life, of living on this earth, on having this human experience. As I write this I sit here with a silly grin on my face, feeling extremely happy. 

So. I’ve progressed. Full-day traditional conferences no longer do the trick for me, I have different preferences. Now I just need to remember this, the next time an opportunity pops up. And a few already have popped up I just realized. Hm. Time to act according to my understanding, and drop the ”Well just this one time”-attitude that is so easy to fall into when changes are to be made. What’s your best trick for following your wisdom rather than your old habits, in a situation like this?

Writing induced by flight mode

It’s funny this, how I seem to be at my very peak of writing whenever I am on a plane, with my iPad in flight mode, isn’t it? Or perhaps it isn’t? Very few distractions, plenty of hours to make the most of, and not a whole lot of options as to what to do. I like it a lot though, getting down to it, writing blog post after blog post, that will be published in due time – some might never make it to the public view though! – and just going with the flow, picking up on a thread, and just writing away for a bit, finishing, finding a new thread, and so on. Repeat until breakfast is served…

So I’ve been thinking how I can set it up for me so I actually can get down to this very peaceful and easy-flowing writing without having to hop across an ocean to do it, and one thought that I’ve been having is to go for silent writing retreats by myself, somewhere. Preferably someplace with no or restricted wifi, to make sure I don’t waste my time idly chatting to friends on social media platforms of one sort or the other.

Now, I do write at home though. Otherwise I’d be hard strapped for daily blogging, let me tell you. And once in a while I take full writing days, because the urge to write is so overpowering which makes it a joy to surrender to that feeling! But I’d like to do more of it.

If I get to dream – and I do! -, I’d go to a simple cottage, somewhere out in the country, with beautiful scenery, so I can also take long exploratory walks, and just write. This summer I visited the summer house of the sister of a dear friend – that would be a perfect spot to go. Secluded, amazing surroundings and with a wonderful ambiance to the house. But I’d have to go alone, because I know if I went with my dear friend, we’d be talking talking talking. Then again, that ain’t bad, so I’m gonna dream about going away with her and a few more friends as well, on a talking retreat! And actually, that’s more likely to happen in the near future, because we will make it so.

Silent retreat

So, the question for me is, when will I make my dream of a silent writing retreat happen?