Social media-challenge for the summer

Woke up this morning. Checked my emails and the feeds of my favorite social media channels Facebook, Instagram and Twitter. Did my Headspace meditation and then checked the feeds again. And again. And again.

twitter byegonePosted a tweet honoring my wise 15-year old who only checks her social media feeds daily, vowing to do the same. And then I deleted my Twitter app from my IPhone. It used to be situated right next to Skype in my Oh no no! Really?-folder, where there is just a void now.

As I was doing that, I figured, why not go all the way? So I closed the Facebook-tab in Safari (haven’t used the app for a long time on my phone) and reorganized the app’s on my phone to show my shifted focus.

Instagrammed about it, making a public promise to check social media only once daily during the summer. To be clear what I mean about this:
*Check Facebook, Instagram, Twitter and Tinybeans at the most once daily.
*I’ll likely Instagram when a lovely photo opportunity comes a-knocking, but won’t check my feed more than once daily. And from Instagram I can post to Facebook and Twitter, which still doesn’t mean I check my feeds.
*I’ll use Buffer to schedule tweets, Facebook and LinkedIn-posts, pushing blog posts, because I’ll still be blogging on a (near) daily basis as well.
*Once my vacation starts for real (a few days to go), I’ll cut down on checking emails as well, likely not checking daily even, but definitely checking my work email at least weekly.
*I don’t include Messenger, iMessage and Viber in this challenge, so if you want to reach me, those are your best options.

There. Now I’m crystal clear what this challenge means for me. And since I posted my Instagram post, I believe a few people have already joined me in this challenge. So I’ll extend it to you as well – do you want to join us?

 

Lost my run streak

Woke up, got my IPhone, and opened the Headspace app. Clicked on a 10 minute unguided meditation but it just froze, nothing really happened, the meditation wouldn’t download. Restarted the app, same thing, so I told myself I’ll do a ”meditation by bike” instead, as I had roughly an hour’s worth of bike riding to look forward to later that day.

Then I woke up again. The next morning. And realized I never did do my ”meditation by bike” and hence, I lost my run streak. I was up to 278 days in a row… and just realized I’d dropped down to zero again. headspaceAnd just as when my blog-every-day-in-a-row-streak was shot after blogging for almost a year without fail in October 2013, I just observed the fact that my run streak was gone. No chastising myself, no telling myself how incredibly stupid and forgetful I was, no moans of regret wishing that it hadn’t happened. Nothing of the sort. Just accepting the fact that I was down to zero, and being ok and absolutely at peace with it.

Because it is ok. The world hasn’t gone to pieces in the days since, and the only action I took was to meditate, when I’d woken up, and I’ve been doing it every day since, just like I was doing before the day I missed it. Can you imagine the amount of heartache and miserable denigrating self-talk I could have saved myself over the years if I had learned this at an earlier stage in my life?

 

Everchanging.

everchangingWe are made to love, to live, to create, to laugh, to cry, to eat, to sleep, to connect, to caress, to be and to do. Journal

In a wonderful mix. Ever-changing.

The Headspace meditation series on CHANGE has really helped me become even more aware of the ever-changing state of mind and body. I often meditate lying down (Heresy!, I hear you say… but hey, whatever works right?). And then I observe that my neck is tense. So I relax, letting my head sink down into the pillow. Continue with the meditation. And all of a sudden my neck is tense again. So I relax. Again. And so it continues.

So far I’ve never been able to spot the moment when I begin to tense up in my neck. It’s just suddenly tense. Even though I know that it’s not like that. There is a beginning to that sensation, and perhaps, with raised awareness I will be able to spot it. One day. Some day. Perhaps. Or perhaps not.

Everchanging. Isn’t that fascinating?

PS – I have three months of free access to Headspace to gift someone. I was thinking I’d give it away to one of my blog readers. Interested? I really want it to come to good use, and Headspace has a ten day free trial, so please download the app and try it out. If, after your trial, you are committed to using it for another three months, give me a holler. Ok?

I’m the fly on the wall

I just started the 10-pack series on Balance in my Headspace-app, and it started off with Andy talking about what balance is to him. I really enjoyed what he said, even though I don’t remember it verbatim. So I’ll just try to use my own words, because I want to share this.

Balance doesn’t mean level, even, a straight line without up’s and down’s. No, that’s not what balance is to me.

Balance, to me, means riding the roller coaster that is life, with all the up’s and down’s, speed changes, bumps and the occasional stop, without getting swept off my feet.

Balance means experiencing my high’s fully, without believing that it’s only when I am high that I can be happy and grateful.

Balance means experiencing my low’s fully, without believing that it’s impossible to be happy and grateful when I am low.

Balance means being ok with, and accepting, what is, in the moment, feeling it, experiencing it, being fully there.

Balance means laughing my head off, or crying my heart out, with the knowing that the strong emotion will pass, in time, however long or short. Being able to be 100% in the feeling, while at the same time being aware that it’s a passing feeling.

fly on wallThere is something very dual in it for me, because it’s both being inside myself, feeling and experiencing fully, while simultaneously being aware of what I am feeling and experiencing, as if I have also taken a step outside myself, being able to bear witness upon myself and my experience.

It’s as if I am being me, but also a fly on the wall looking at me. *haha* I promise I did not see that analogy coming, but now that it’s here, I like it. Because it explains my experience quite well. I’m me, but also the fly on the wall.

Have you ever felt like that?