8 years of adventure

logga respondi in color jpgEight years ago, on Monday October 1st of 2007, was the first day of being self-employed. The first day of operating under the name of Respondi AB, not supported in any way by a boss, an employer, colleagues.

My sense of right-doings had stopped me from actually contacting potential customers to ensure I had an assignment starting October 1st, until I had officially quit my previous employment. I did have a lunch date set up with one though, on this very first day, and I left that meeting with a one-month assignment. That turned into a three year full time gig, in one of the most challenging projects I’ve ever worked with (the building of a greenfield API facility outside Mumbai, India, for those of you who understands that life science-mumbo jumbo).

At the end of that gig, working fewer and fewer hours/week for my client, as the need for me became smaller and smaller (the very best of assignments, in my view, where I slowly make myself unnecessary, as the organization itself get’s to be self-sufficient, constructing and setting in place the structures and routines necessary to function in a good way), I made a decision to train as a coach. And since then, well, life hasn’t been the same. In the very best sense possible!

That also meant I no longer wanted to find long-term full-time assignments, such as the above-mentioned gig, but rather have shorter assignments of a different type. I still have a few ties to the Life Science-industry, but less and less, and I am slowly transitioning out of that business, fully.

That in itself is an interesting journey, it’s like I am actively decommissioning myself from Life Science. It’s like starting a new job, and going through the first time of doing everything, except turned upside down. I’m doing stuff for the last time (at least, that’s my sensation), and am aware of it, which gives it a bit of a bittersweet flavor. It’s my choice though, and I know it’s the right one for me. Now I just have to learn to say No when asked to hang on a bit longer in the industry…. and that might well be my toughest challenge here. Have you got any experience with this process of slowly retracting from a specific industry/business to share with me?

The choice is mine

Now. I might just be really slow on the uptake, but I was seriously astounded by an aha-moment I had a few months ago when I read what went something like this:

Each time you eat you have a choice, whether or not to put something in your mouth that brings you either towards health or towards unhealth.

Now, I am very conscious about food and know what’s healthy etc, but still – the simplicity of this statement brought me to a stand still. I froze. And realized the beauty of actually putting it down to this, each and everytime I either eat or drink. Because sometimes I might not care, I’d rather choose something yummy and totally bad for me than refrain. And that’s fine. Because othertimes I’ll choose to refrain or to pick and choose more carefully, in order to actually bring me towards physical health.
Now, for some things I’d rather have a once-in-a-lifetime-choice to make rather than having to decide each and every time. But for other things, not so prone towards the never-again-option that pops into my head when I think about this. For the #cleanse4expansion project I’m currently running, I decided when I started to do a minimum of 15 minute of daily cleansing. Easy. Choice made. Mind made up. And yup, I’ve stuck by it, because I said I would. But when it comes to eating and drinking, I’ve certainly thought about it a lot, but haven’t made any decisions like that. Yet. Might. Who know’s right?
 
But still. The ”stop eating crap all the time”-diet certainly appeals to me. That’s for sure. And I don’t. Eat crap all the time, that is. Once in a while, yup. Haven’t gone absolute on this. Yet, as I just said. I might. I am certainly well on my way to a severely reduced crap-intake, that’s for sure. Being flexitarian I very rarely eat meat (and when I do, it’s very seldom ”industrial-grade” meat), on account of this our skillet is very rarely used, I eat more and more organic food, lots of fruits and vegetables, my morning green smoothies are to die for, the raw food balls I make are an excellent snack together with a handful of (organic and soaked) almonds, and so on.
But am I a purist? No. Not at all. I eat the occational take-away pizza. Chips, cakes, popcorn, desserts. I eat candy. Or at least did. Am contemplating cutting candy out of my diet actually – with the exception of chocolate. I love chocolate, dark, organic, preferably plain. Yum. Well. You get the picture. And the thing is, being more aware that there is a choice to eat/drink my way towards health or unhealth makes the choice to go for the healthy stuff easier and easier. But it all comes down to one thing: I feel better. I have more stamina. My body and I are becoming good friends. I listen more to what my body is telling me, and I am more loving towards it. I want it to thrive!
So, have you tried the new ”stop eating crap all the time”-diet yet?

Thank you, Ed!

I just watched Citizenfour. From the get-go I had the feeling that this was gonna be one of those experiences which I would rather not have had, simply because I don’t want to live in a world as the one depicted. And it’s not just depicted as such, because it’s not a made-up story. It’s not fiction. It’s the way of the world.

But it’s not the world I want to live in. Sorry, but it just isn’t. Where some people deem themselves overlords over others. In some ways, I’m probably guilty of that myself – lording over others, people with lesser means than I have in one form or another. It still isn’t the direction I want to see the world evolve.

Anyway, watching this story of one man with such knowledge of what the system/s contain that he has no choice but to expose it, my heart goes out for him. But more than that, I am grateful for people like Edward Snowden and other whistleblowers, who put themselves at risk for the greater good.

BoldomaticPost_If-there-s-nothing-to-hide-thI am left with one lingering thought, which is likely the most naive stance to take, but yet, it’s my stance:
The only way to not have to worry about what get’s out where, is to be totally transparent. If there’s nothing to hide, there’s nothing you cannot stand for, is there? Then you wouldn’t have to sit at a congressional hearing and willfully lie to the people before you. You wouldn’t have to use shady ways of leaning on people to get them to back down and/or keep quiet.

But no, I don’t know if that’s even possible, if a government and it’s agencies can choose that path. I don’t know. Perhaps not. But I know I can. As an individual. Stand for what I do. Which doesn’t mean I display my every action, word, thought, but that I could. If called on them, I could. Because I stand for them, or at least that’s my intent. Being human, I stumble and fall, and take action in ways I regret, for sure, but that’s what being human is, isn’t it?

Anyway. I’d like to say thank you, Ed, for all that you did. For the risks you took, for the path of life – likely nowhere near the way you dreamt your life would turn out – you deliberately stepped upon, for the sake of us all. Thank you, Ed!

PS – Haven’t watched it yet? Do it. Just do it. Ok?

Just being a person

Just watched this clip:

Am horrified there are so many who do nothing at all, silently they watch, keeping their eyes downcast, not saying anything. Am relieved there are people speaking up once in a while, and elated at the ending:

That was not heroic, that was just being a person.

Ain’t that the truth, and we all have a choice what kind of person we want to be. Martin Luther King Jr said it beautifully:

“Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.”

Watch this clip, and imagine it’s your best friend behind the counter. Would person would you chose to be then?