True to my word, I’m immersing in the concept of being aware today. As I sit here I look at the post from yesterday, and figure I might just as well just start at the beginning:
What does being aware make you think?
First off, that it’s something I know much more intimately now, compared to before. I am much more aware today, both of myself, but also of what goes on outside of me. And I like that.
Well. Since I like the feeling of being aware, it really makes me feel good. Thinking about awareness gives me a warm feeling, and a strong sense of calm. It’s not always easy to be aware of this and/or that, but generally speaking, it’s as if the world becomes clearer, more well-defined, with a heightened awareness. Hence, the sense of calm.
What do you associate with being aware?
Wisdom. Clarity. A greater presence in the world – seeing it for what it is. Not placing a lot of extra stuff on top, but rather stripping down to what is.
A gentleness towards oneself, as well as to all other sentient beings, but also to everything else, non-sentient as well as sentient.
Do you think of yourself as being aware? Or not?
Yes. I do. Now. Before, not so much. For me, it’s very much linked to the fact that I’ve learned how to be gentle with myself, which means I am curious about myself. Curiosity and awareness go very well hand in hand, because unless you are curious, and gentle with yourself, what you might discover about yourself through an increased awareness will get you in trouble. With yourself, no less.
What I mean is, before, I was afraid to see me. Because when I found something within that I didn’t like, didn’t approve of, wasn’t proud of…. I beat myself up over it. And that really isn’t a very good way to encourage more awareness and discovery. Nowadays, when I find something within that I previously would have labeled as something not likable, something to disapprove of etc, I see it. That’s all. I can embrace it for what it is, a part of me. Not judging it. And definitely not beating myself up over it. Makes me much more prone to being even more aware.
Do you have a role model, someone who personifies being aware for you?
There are quite a few people that I look up to when it comes to being aware. People who model it for me, simply by being. And I’ve been smart enough to make these people an integral part of my life. Friends, partners in various endeavors, coaches. So yes. I definitely have role models, and by hanging out with them, my own awareness get’s a boost. It’s a good trick, I definitely recommend it.
What, or who, boosts your awareness?